平静不代表空闲..
平静也不代表不忙碌..
现在到回了之前的生活…
一样没的很好休息…
正是我要的东西..
接下来会更忙…
因为我要回归taskforce team了..
因病倒休息了一个月..
这个月也没能休息到什么….
我。也不想呀..
可是工作就会找上我..而我就不会去拒绝..
也好啦..现在不需要顾虑谁的感受..我要多忙也可以..忙到自己累死也可以…
可是还是会想….
这星期好平静…麻木了现状的生活环境吗？
麻木了我想…
不小心看了我妹的blog…
一篇是写着“哥哥病倒了”
看了觉得窝心…
明年一定要实现我的目标!

已近在家呆了兩天..
利用點時間為我自己打算一下..
要盤算的事有太多了..
畢竟最近都發生很多事..
先說說我的前途吧..
認識我的人都會知道我的為人..我的方向..
說真的..有點煩…
當手上只有蘋果時..你會毫不猶豫選擇吃了它…
當手上多了幾樣都喜歡的東西..問題就來了..
吃那個先？不要吃那一個呢？
好笑嗎？還是我就是不善于選擇呢？
要衡量和估計未來會發生的事真的很難..
我不喜歡用腦想嗎？懶惰？還是我想得態太多？
了解得太多..越難做個決定..
對于我的未來就是-事業真的有點不知所措..
太鳥了吧？手上不再是蘋果，橙和葡萄..
而是水果，西餐，中餐和意大利餐…
看到分別嗎？我煩的不是什么工作而是什么行業..
要知道男的進錯行還慘過女的嫁錯狼…
水果中餐西餐都是我會吃..我就是不吃意大利餐..
但是要知道意大利餐市場少喔..有的做喔… 哈哈..
是不是想得太遠太多呢？我的腦子在分析什么呀..
真的很煩..煩 還是很煩…
那天定了去Taiwan的機票..是我主動要去的哦…
印象當中..我是不會這樣對自己的..
可能Air Asia 的優惠真的太吸引人了吧？
我自己也不知道當中的原因..
選擇了Taiwan和背包旅行這個項目
可能被最近的煩惱影響吧？
一個人靜靜的..到陌生的土地..吸著不一樣的空氣..不同的文化風情..
可能對我是件好事..讓我有個不同的視野再次看看這個世界吧…
好期待..四月的到來..
因為那時會是2010..會是我畢業了..會是新的旅程..
2009年..是個不錯的一年..要半年了..計劃進行中..
要趕快站起來了..不能再被回憶過去的陰影影響了..

Again and again..
I m now sitting at Hua Wei office in Glomac online and writing this post..
Its Friday.. and the F* thing is I have to work overtime again..
the 4th time in a week.. in fact i just work 4 days this week..
New tools, new software cost us a lot extra work and time..
this really make me headache and unhappy!
I suppose to meet up with my NS friends later 8.30pm for dinner..
I miss my NS friends… but because of all this .. I m gonna to miss that…
Really hope miracle happen later..
What I m doing recently?
I really have no idea..
Really lost my direction..
Trying hard to find something I really interest in..
Looking for the missing passion..
Where are them? Missing in action? Rest in Peace?
Haha…ha ha ha…
I guess they hide themselves already..
OK… give u guys sometime …

wS just question me why I m damm free today…
Story begins like tat…
Reach office quite early 2day… ( Have too ).. coz I have to finish up the SSV and drive test report…According to what planned yesterday.. I should staying in office to learn 2G stuff.. reporting.. SSV.. software…
Haha.. after that post status in facebook then office flood… Wtf.. do u believe it?
then receive call have to do SSV cluster in Damansara Area.. by using the new 200USD software and tools.. I think we will start work at 12am or 1am later then work till this morning.. good thing is.. I no need to work the next day.. But 2day really exhausted d.. wat to do.. everyday just thinking of her..

唉… 一驗就出事..還好是小事一宗吧..希望
肝數很高..要戒煙酒一陣子了…
唉…時間好像越來越少那樣..這次病倒真的有點擔心..
唉..現在才發現原來她跟周慧敏有7分像臉叻..哈哈..
真的很喜歡周慧敏叻…愛死她了..
現在的女藝人真的比以前更漂亮..更性感…更會打扮..
但是跟她沒的比丫…哈哈…
現在在家養身體就翻看大時代…
哇..看到我的夢中情人在戲了被劉青云欺負作弄…
真的很想自己就是劉青云..哇…想到都爽啦…
那樣笨笨的..傻傻的..哈哈…
可憐的是劉青云沒能在戲里享齊人之福…
現實的生活里能嗎？真的好想知道叻…

Gosh…
So many things happen recently..
Right.. so so so many..
THe headline I guess is I got Denggi…following by the rest..
Cant imagzine I have to admit to ICU for two nights for close observation.. 
because my platelet count only 16k/uL which normally should be in the range of 150k/uL -450k/uL. Huh.. hate when body not feeling well.. I cant do what I like.. I have to eat so many different kind of tablets… Took so many blood test..

Cant sleep well because the nurse wake me so early to take body temperature… I feel so week.. no strength.. no mood.. no appetite.. all the while..
After I discharge… so many things waiting me to follow up and settle..But I m very lazy.. I got no mood for all these.. I feel like want to run  away just for a moment.. Give me a break? I m asking for it myself this time..
Now only I understand how suffer when we fall sick..Lucky my family and my friends are with me.. I dont feel like talking non stop like last time.. I want to be alone more … Like just now.. I went to MId Valley..then to Genting…
I was so surprise.. Mid Valley so empty.. I mean not many ppl shopping or queuing up for movie tickets..I sitting alone there eating Carl’s Junior.. Seeing people walking around and talking with their partner.. Then I make my move to Genting.. speeding up the hill.. rev my car till red line.. cut all the corners… Yeap.. it just took me 17 mins to reach from guard house to the top.. Its windy and cold… coz late d.. Lucky for me .. car park near the lobby entrance.. 1st time so lucky… THen only I found out.. there are not many ppl in Genting too.. where the hell all ppl har??? Even the tables are not crowded like last time.. I walk here and there.. looking some kind of good feel to place my bet.. Normally I will just spend my time on the big small table.. but not today.. I want something more exciting.. I head towards the player and banker table.. 1st time in my life.. I bet RM 100 for single bet.. Guess what.. Lose…
Nevermind try again…another 100 for banker.. win… then another 100 for banker… win… haha.. sounds so easy to win.. easy come easy go.. at last I make my move as I won 200 on hand.. 1st time in my life…gaining something back from Unlce Lim’s Casino instead of spending.. I need time for my soul and health to recover… Give me so time…